Jo.




the laid.back buddhist 2007
Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen. [Emerson]
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Miike Snow - Cult Logic

Off to dye.

The red-head is baaaaaack.

Yup, after a 3-year hiatus to foray into the land of muted auburn-chestnutty browns…apparently, a girl can’t escape from her inner fire. Like a moth to a flame.

To be honest, I think I subconsciously made the decision to stay away from red dyes. Before I wasn’t quite sure if it was because I was transforming into a new stage of my life or slowly healing from heartbreak…both acts of breaking away, so to speak.

But now that I’ve successfully crossed back over to the Red Side (hah), I know I was simply waiting for the right time.

The me in previous red-headed times was lost and chugging full-speed in all directions at 120 km per hour (yes, since I’m in Canada now, I figure I ought to make a good faith effort—just ignore the fact that the weather on my iGoogle page is still in degrees Fahrenheit). Back then, I didn’t care whether or where I crashed. It was all about pushing my limits to find freedom and not really understanding that instead I was digging a fancy free-falling hole.

Now, I’m no longer chasing shapes to fill voids of insecurities, fears, and excuses. Which is not to say I don’t battle inner demons, old and new…all the more, in fact, as time passes. It’s just that I’m no longer trying a prove something to nobody. From here on out, I want every action of mine to be a real reflection of who I am and my personal potential. Sounds corny, even to me.  BUT, as Madonna once said…“I don’t know what I was thinking before I was thinking.” Except for me, it’s more like: I don’t know what I was thinking before I was feeling.

Basically, I’ve just u-turned my way back into not giving a damn again. And this time, for the right reasons.

So…let’s burn, baby, buuurn.

On discovery.

  1. I really enjoy living on my own.
  2. Trying to be vegetarian just makes me love meat that much more.
  3. Battle of the $: good food > pretty new clothes.  ASTONISHING true story.
  4. Belief + Courage + Practice = Forearm headstand for 3 minutes.
  5. My taste buds prefer the flavor of organic food.
  6. The fact that Asians will question the authenticity of my full Asian blood inevitably arises.
  7. I can walk out my door without makeup.  Albeit I just happened to look damned good that hour.
  8. The more food I have in my fridge/cabinet, the more I will eat.
  9. Ironically, feeling comfortable in my skin allows me to lose weight more easily.
  10. I am truly my mother’s daughter.

I like.        Medina - You and I

On grad school.

I love it! It’s gonna be lots of hard work, but real and interesting work.

Amazing what a difference that makes.

Human beings have tremendous capacities. If they’re willing to make the effort, if they’re willing to look at themselves in the mirror and to think honestly, they can do it—with hard work. Noam Chomsky

Watching this today makes me sad all over again, probably more so since it’s finally sinking in.  How can the dreams of 7 people on the upswing of their career end like this?

It’s like woefully misplaced kpop jingoism. I refuse to believe it. Damn, I miss 2PM.

Wooyoung says “Have Strength” to 2PM’s leader Jaebom, who has been forced to go back to Seattle by mean-spirited Korean antis over a MySpace comment 4 freakin’ years ago. Silly, ain’t it?

Real mastery is the ability to stay fully present for whatever life brings because we trust who we are. Richard Moss.